Sunday, May 18, 2008 @ 11:24 PM
HELLO EVERYONE!! :D Haven't been blogging for a longlonglonglong time eh? wahahaha! cuz i lazy to luh -_- Nvm. Anw also nth much to post abt ma..hahaha. Wellwell...anws, shall post abt trainings?? i dno haha! Training had been rather...errr...dno luh -_- training itself is alright, but i dun feel good, yea. cuz feel like i am still not good enough..i seriously dun think i am good for goodness sake, i strive for the btr and wish for the best ba. lost xfj feeling le!!! :O:O:O But..shud be ok soon, wahahahaha(i hope so :S ) but still managed to do 630 at least la...juz i am not satisfied lo..lidat lo hahaha. cuz really no good la the fhweeling :@ Bailian dno why when do in wz is good la, like feel btr, juz that i think cuz injured then dun dare to do alot of things ba. W8 till i not scared then can do alre ^^ others also nth much la. haha. Taolu was rather ok...yea hahaha. i heard got ppl learning ZIXUAN nanquan lehhh!!! wooaahhh...scarly quanguosai dun have then i laugh sia...WAHAHHA!! anw i also dno wad i will be doing this quanguosai luh..i maybe dwan do zixuan, i still think i not up to that kinda good standard yet, muz work harder...if i can..haiix..no motivation la! Plus exam stress and bla always cannot train, not enough training = improve lesser :O my kong zhong gan jue not as good alre, not cuz i quit somewhere but is cuz nv train lately due to exams and i got a little injury...hmm..I unds that there are ppl trying to catch up and overtake me, juz like when i started from scratch under the guidance of wu jl. However, i believe my strive for excellence isn't weak, while they are only trying to overtake me, i am trying to match up with the china peeps, that is physically impossible, i know, but this keeps me driving, provides me with a good mindset, AND...a good ganjue( or so i am trying to find still ). Indeed i want to be the best, but i dun think i am complacent or haolian or w/e...but alot of ppl misunds that all of us who lian until the "wz standard" are haolian. i beg to differ, while i agree that some are lidat, i know of ppl who aren't. And are close friends of mine..err..nvm. Well, even in wz also not all are haolian, i respect these teammates too ^^ i believe that if u're good, u dun have to show off purposely in a place and time. Save it for the compts, that is where WE shine. why "WE"? haha..i believe this is not only to individuals, ur JLs play a part in ur performance too. And a GREAT jl is much diff..their very precense spur u on to greater heights. Not like any ordinary jls..and most imptantly, the GREAT JL isn't flashy, as in damn haolian and like to show off kind. During compts he will juz follow u and give u instructions, take care of u, get u all prepared( with occassional jokes..-_- HAHA ) then...we are up to showcase wad we have learnt and worked hard for that year :D The place is juz like my second home..once. The very thought that there will be training on that day makes me feel delighted, happy and blablabla..every lesson there will be smth gained, HONESTLY!! :O perhaps we wun feel it at that moment, but when we think abt it, it happens that we were compiling and awaiting for the next "tu1 puo4" to come. former laosius will know wad i mean ^^ . oh..or perhaps...the few who unds the true essence of..i also dno wad AHHAHAAH. But it's juz sth, sth which can only be undstood after u experience it, sth which cannot be explained through plain "tao3 geh2" ( taogeh=english strokes which make up words ^^ ) . Sorry for those who are non-wushu practitioners...=( Ok...well, apart from trainings and traings and trainings and trainings and.....ok..nvm -_- wahahaha. Well...sth had been bothering me these few days which i am not gg to expose here. This is a harmful environment my dear words...shhhhh. Silent is golden, wise one...hohohoo~HAHAHA! Well...anw i dun really have the motivation in wz now...cuz of sths la, actually a number of factors. But nvm abt that =( Studies had been crappy la, so heck abt it HAHAH! ooh yea..anw i have decided that i will be gg mjc next year bah..dwan vjc le..i dun like to stress myself out ^^ HHAHAAH. i prefer to have SUITABLE AMOUNT OF FUN, while maintaining the seriousness for trainings and other things, be it social, political, economical, environmental...err...wad the heck am i talking abt??? o.O But yea...i believe while having fun one have to be serious too, smtms sacrifices have to be made in order to balance...alot of things actually..one of which i believe is friendship, or perhaps the communication between u and ur dear/close friend. Ppl have diff thoughts from each other, have diff feelings, diff philosophies and bla luh..that's why i always try to unds, and after sooooo long finally btr at it liao ^^ . Cuz...i make sacrifices, minor or major i really dno, but by doing this i will be able to cater to some ppl. Of cuz, not ALL ppl out there are worth my scarifice..muahahahaha! But...i am always the one who make sacrifices, but get little, almost negligible, in return...well..suay lor...wad else...Ok la...tmr's vesak day, public holiday!! YAY!!!! :D To all of u ppl reading this, i wish yall a happy day ahead then ^^ may my POWERS watch over yall...oooooo~ ( nah..juz kidding, i have no powers la, juz referencing with my late retarded post WAHAHAHA XP )
